Probably in life,
the most successful thing i could do is to wrk.
To wrk non-stop everyday.
Probably ppl like me would know wad i am talkin abt.

I tried so hard to make it wrk, it's jux i wondered wad
happened again?
Probably wad i can do is to earn a stable income every month,
groom myself wif whatever shit i need.

Probably i would be a successful makeup artist or a store manger
working fucking hard for money.
Probably tt's all i know wad to do.
No matter hw much i try it seems like nth could have wrk.

-nazuki-

*sigh~
It's sad that thru arguements we finally find out,
what was :
- misunderstood
- taken granted for
- the most impt pts of gettin a balanced r/s
- broken (as in promise) in the r/s

But my friend told me this, take all the sad part in life as
beautiful things and u will feel better. Cos sad things are
part of a beautiful life that makes wad u will be in the future.
I agree with her saying.

Humans in nature is very forgetful, i forget for a moment but i wont forget
forever cos for me u are always impt, at least for now.
I have to say i broke promises and absolutely gt no rights to say anything.
I always remember this now, no matter hw angry i am, i wont forget who matters to me the most. My love, my friends will always be in my heart always.

Im trying as hard to make the r/s, trying to be mre open and less petty
to nt impt stuffs, im bitting my teeth and holding on, pls rem it takes 2 to wrk out.
I dont wanna do it alone, I need u.

If I reach out my hand,
hold on tight.
If I ever cry,
dry my tears.
If I feel sad and helpess,
give me a hug.
If I look sad,
jux give me ur sweetest smile and u will
see me smiling.

But ever if u need anything,
even in the middle of the night,
I want u to know that i dont mind
to rush over to give u that smile,or a warm hug or
even a passionate kiss.
I will b there for u whenever i can,

Thou love causes heartaches, it makes me feel i
lived for smth.


-nazuki-

Is a r/s really hard to maintain?

I have to say it's pretty hard
becos human nature is 80% selfish.
most of the times we think of the situation as we are the victims
and forget hw our partner sacrifice for us.

I haven been in a r/s for abt a yr plus.
27.05.09, my new r/s starts wif a happy jabroni=)
Even thou nw a lot of factors affects the r/s, i still love him a lot.
I used to be very lose on controllin my partner(or as in ppl i go out wif)
after my last r/s.
Cos i hate the feeling of heartache and quarrels that lead on to nth
but mre misunderstanding and tears.
Recently due to the new time for my new job, things start to get a lil
hard and friction is btn both of us. Cos my wrk time affects me thus
indirectly affects him.
I know it wont be easy, but i hope things will get a lil mre better
as time goes.
I hope he didnt get the wrong msg of wad i told him.

My bf jux needs to be some1 who has a stable career(nt as in he have to earn 3k/4k per mth) but enuff jux for himself cos i am financial stable for myself.
Ppl who knows me probably rmbr me sayin i wan a 180 bf, cute, handsome and etc.
But i think jeremy is gd enuff, he has nice smile, cute face, nt 180(but to me it's a comfortable ht.), listens when i talk and would nv pick a fight wif me and most of the time he is very sensitive.

If he is nt ard i probably would miss him doing some weird noises wif his voice,
hugging me tight when he is fast asleep and he would nv fail to say i love you too
if he heard me saying i love u, asked me if i was bored when he is playing dota. Wad mre should i ask for ? for having such a gd bf.
I hope he dont get the wrong idea *sigh~
It's just so hard to convey a msg to some1 u really love.
It's so freakin hard man!!
and this time i really fall deep. Deep down!
I jux hope that he still know that i love him,
and i hope he loves me jux as much as i do.

-loves, nazuki-

UPDATES!!!!

Haven been blogging for DAMN freakin long.
Busy wif personal stuffs abd tired!!
extreme!! I typically gt no time for anything!!
And one mre thing ARGGH end of mth liao gettin poor!!!
I wonder hw long it takes for me to save up for diploma in makeup.
I jux checked the fees to study the whole makeup course is like 3425 now~~!!!
wooww! and that i think excludes the makeup kit and tools!!!

Humans are jux nt contended enuff i guess,we jux want ourself to be better each time.
Im still stuck in life findin wad i would like to wrk as, or rather wrk for.
And careers that i have chose is always related to cust and provides service for ppl.
I'm seriously is a lil tired of retailin line but *sigh i guesss would be like this for the moment?I wish i can be a professional makeup artist I wonder wad would b next.. lmao

Quite stress, cos haven been undergoing pressure.
ARGHHHH come on man! where have the happy times gone?
DAMN i prey a lil mre laughter up ahead n a lil lesser stress pushin on me
dun be depressed NAZU!! heheheh =))

-nazuki-

Have been damn tired but happy in a way tt,
the r/s is gg ok.
I dun ask for much but see hw it goes...
But I have to remind myself again, Humans are nt perfect
tt includes me so i shouldnt ask for much.
And i guess wad matter is to see the positive things tt he do for me.

-send to the bus stop and waited for me to take the bus
-carried my heavier carrier
-wake up early with me
-didnt have enough slp but didnt complain and throw tantrum
-holds onto my hands thou sometimes my palm turns sweaty
-go wherever i feel like going
-eat whatever i wanted to eat
-stop doing whatever im nt happy with


So wad right have i gt to say he's nt a gd bf?
LOL
appreaciated im for being my bf!! XD

-nazuki-

My JABass part II

After lan shop was prata @ ah neh ah neh with jrock, esther, ruth, yuki and co.
hmmmmMMmmm after tt head hm wif my BFF ruth and esther back to cck.
ZZZ till nxt morning then esther didnt manage to wake up cos she slept @ 6am lol.
But i meet JABasss and watched movie, NATM2.. was a retard comedy cum romance shw but was rather funny, went back wif him after tt, he gave me his baby photo.. LOL Met ruth ytd aldso =)

Addicted to this song,


I can replay it a thousand times!!!!
=))
It's not goobye~

-nazuki-

My JABass

This JABass!! damn ass la! called me a ching chong pok girl =(
http://djjabroni.livejournal.com/ !!!! In his blog LOL
in return i call him JABass!!

Ytd meet up wif him after my 2 to 6 @ LP
then went to evo and look for yuki.
Jrock, ruth & esther joined in later for counter strike
and L4D game after tt!! damn fun i swear!
Counter strike was like -_-
cos i couldnt tell the difference btn counter and terrorists.
then L4d was like fcuk sia..
First round was guys vs. girls, then jitao owned!!
Jabass keep killing me also =((
ASSHOLE!!! we were in the lan shop like damn loud!!!
can hear ruth's laughter, jeremy's scream and my own scream.
Yuki's "CB" was like damn loud.

............................... to be continued.

-nazuki-