I have been angry and sad @ times.
For wad had happened, for what is happening now.
Now and then wasnt very different.
TT makes me realise hw happier i was in life @ some points.
I treasure it then i treasure it nw.
Be it for love,
Be it for friendship,
Be it for wrk..
There are ups and downs.
Thou im at the lowest pt,
I wont let them bring me down.
4mths was the first time mayb this time will be longer.

Wad's so perfect abt urself?
Mayb it's time humans take a look in the mirror?
Question urself wad u did right and wrong?
If u dun even make a single mistake then take a step higher.

I am happy for wad i have,
for wad i achieve.
I fell and stand up again,
i make sure i will..

-nazuki-

Another day of sorrow,
any day of my life flew past me.
Im gonna be 21 soon, and im still stuck...

Probably ending up here is bd,
but nt realli bd. ive learnt to get on my feets.
To be like one of them, proanaly one of us
would get oscar best leading female actor ^^

I guess it's like tt everywhere?
Or is it jux here.
i think i also damn suay, my GM call my shop
which he nv do...
and he did ytd.thought is another college playin a prank on me.
then gt him into trouble also...
*sigh x inifnity

Lady luck where are u?
Some1 even ask me to go pray...
hmmmm should i?
*sigh

have been so sad for like 3 wks...
I hope i will hapiier soon ^^

tdy meeting my loves <3 lol ^^
i guess happi day later?

Sick sicker~

ytd had fever,
took medication recover a bit i guess.
but im still very dizzy, gt the yun yun feel.
Like im floating, so tired and tmr have stock take fcuk!!
damn i hate.
*cross fingers
I hope everything will be done smoothly.
It looks like everything is in a mess thou =(
*sigh
I still feel tt humans are very very scary...
scary then whateva thing living on earth~
I wish i wish there are nicer ppl ard me =(
*sigh

If im still gonna be sad for the nxt few mths,
u will probably see me fallin into depression...
*sigh
i sigh mre often nw thou...

anyway some outdated pics ^^


-nazuki-

Have u ever realli look deep into a person's eye?
U will realise hw scary a person can be.
I seriously hate serious eye contacts(wif ppl im nt clse wif).

I fear to see wad is inside of u,
wad is deep within u.
The way i was questioned,
i felt like a prisoner held in jail.
The way u looked at me,
I felt my truth looking like lies.
I dunnoe hw to react to u anymre..
It seemed that im nt doing wad im suppose to do,
or are u making me lookin like tt,
u make me confused.
Or was it the other way round.
I see no pt tellin u anymre things, cos im jux gonna waste my time.
This emotion tt is getting into me,
I dont know hw long i can withstand..
But one thing im for sure, if i endure to the end i will be the winner.

Or is it a sign to shw it's time for me to fight back?
But will i be able to be the winner once again?
mayb jux a little longer...







-nazuki-

Life is jux so full of surprises.
You will nv see ur future, until it comes.
I hadven been realli happi for some things,
for some things tt i dun see a pt in sayin out.
So wad if i say tt?
Will u listen? Will u share my load?
I doubt so...

Im happy abt my life, family & friends.
Thou finance was always a problem.
But im sad abt...
abt my job.
Abt what im doing each day.
To a point, i dun even noe why imliving on this earth.
To maintain my look, style, size.
To worry abt my pimples, my dark circle and the amt of fats im
gonna have eating each type of food @ times.
Humans live to suffer or live to smile.

I guess i have a choice.
The secrets says....

"If u think u are sad, then u will be sadder.."

^^


-nazuki-

Pampered

*smiles
lalalalalal!!!
yay i bought myself a couple of stuffs...
And im happi XD
List of things i gt:
-my fav comic
-slimming cream(for my super duper big thighs): it's kinda gd i measure my leg abt some time back, i think my thighs become smaller by 1/2 inch!!! lol if i measured the right place.
-3x volume(SHILLS) : i dun realli recomend this cos it's nt any better than
hair spray, doesnt stay too long, cos scalp to be itchy due to dryness, drys hair.
-A fasio purple eye shadow, new series (needs to mix wif shinny eye shadow, otherwise the effect very matt)






Part II
this is realli hard work i swear!!
It took almost a mth to get all of these.
- acrylic roses frm the cathay and clarke quay!!
- swarsoki crystals frm arab street
And the worse thing, I realise i haven do anything to my HP OMG!



Part III
My nails 2 wks ago.. lol doesnt look like tt nw thou, except for my toe nails.
LMAO





Part IV
-THE MUST BUY COOLING TEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!




THUS THINGS to do in 4 weeks time.
- Get my hair trimmed & colour
- Decorate my hp!!
- Stock take (24th_ @ shop =(
- do my finger nails!!


~nazuki~

ME and MYSELF

Have u wonder hw much u change as a person?
lolx..
i dont know abt u....
but for me i realise i change a lot.

Frm bad to better,
frm better fallin back to worst.
and back to better again..
My life and ppl ard me keep changing as life goes on.
I dun noe hw long i can laugh wif the ppl i trust nw,
but i will treasure.
Glad tt at least im nt alone.

For whatever that had happened to me will be left behind,
Behind of me and..
tt'll be it.
It will nv happen again, and i will be standin strong like nw.
Like who i am instead of wad some1 liked.
I would say i did regretted knowing him.

For now I have a wish...

And that is to be ME.




-nazuki-

If I were a boy..

Which i think i will never be.
I dont think i would ever live up even criteria of being a guy.
The difference btn a guy and a girl.

GUYS(most nt all)
-Their brains function together wif their dick.
-Sex comes before love.
-Dont see a big deal in having many girls or rather having sex wif
diff girls in a week.
-Uses girl's weakness(love/affection): when girls fall in love(tt' it),
take her cash, have her body or even abuse her; make her a sex slave.
-Put themselves first.
-Treats a girl super nice before getting her.
-Earn cash to feed cars, electronic devices, or the lastest PC game.
-Thinks that all girls are troublesome, or attention seeker whores.
-As they grow older, perversions take over them, seek for chhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiii bitches,
use wateva cash they have to be sucked dry by them to have their dicks into the holes.
-usually slaps they own mouth, with their own words.

GIRLS(most nt all)
-See guys criteria as in cars, cash, salary, credit card.
-Wants to be pampered love and have the attention frm a guy.
-Sees sex as a key to hold down guy's love, or some even use cash.
-Earn to spend on cosmetic, slimming cream and "bao yang bing"
-Hates guys that doesnt have nice gesture.
-Sees beauty maintaining mre than saving money in the back.
-Many are bimbos, pretty on the outside stupid in the inside.
-Some are bitchy whores that lures man for ONSs.
-Thinks that the are the prettiest bitch on earth.
-Use sex as bait to earn luxury.

Guys are bastards, girl are bitches.
What have humans gt to say?
Mars vs Venus.
Mayb we hate & love each other for wad we are.

Sometimes i think SOME ppl made the society look bad,
turn ard and see hw many ppl are stabbing behind u?
U will be really shock to see wad's happening.
I quote this frm a drama,
"Humans betray to live to their dreams faithfully"
I saw it for myself..
Hw cruel humans can be.

anyway ppl,
pls help to click on the nuffnang ads at the top
of my blog pic ^^ thnx !!

-nazuki-

1st day @ wrk

Actually sometimes,
the feeling of rushing for wrk can be very contending.
LOL especially when u reach wrk on time!! LMAO
I couldnt bother mre to do anything on train tdy,
I jux fell asleep after i gt a sit XD

On my way hm, met a really crappy aunty lah!!
I was waiting for the lrt, then suddenly felt someone pushing me, look
to the back alamak~~ a aunty push push. train haven even stop, rush to where !! -_-
then i jux said to my sis loudly : shui ah? zhuang wo? Then i stare at her at the corner of my eye. Cos im gonna alight on the first stop, before i made my way.
The same aunty again leh, this time "excuse me" people when the train haven open the door. After tt she combo again!!! 1,2,3 ppl go into the lift, I DUN GET IT leh seriously!! NO ONE NO ONE PRESSED THE LIFT la. Then again the damn aunty squeeze in front of me jux siam to the left hand side. I press the lift on the right, then i said loudly: Bu liao jie leh, mei zhi mei you ren an tian ti.
Seriously I DONT GET IT. Some aunty can be a "gold digger", pressing the lift button is defintely cleaning than wad they do lah!!
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!

-nazuki- ARGGHH

Back to wrk..

Tmr will be my 1st day of wrk after 4 days of differebr kinda leaves..
1day of off day, 1 day of replacement off, 2 days of medicial leaves.
But dun envy me, cos i didnt have fun these few days.
I ate so much med tt sometimes the med jux filled my stomach =(

I completed watching a drama..
http://wiki.d-addicts.com/LIAR_GAME
finally after so much struggle.. lolx cos i have to wrk and didnt manage to have extra time
to watch.
The shw jux shws human nature. sad but true.

Gonna end here wif a pic of me XD