1/4 of my life..

If u have realli try to know abt me,
or some1 who realli understand me.
U will know im unhappy abt 1/4 of my life.
i think it's me killing myself.
i am too protective of myself getting into a serious r/s.
So i give up in engaging in a real r/s or rather say i dun have a chance to.

Guys having gf, having another girl outside.
So i dun see a pt in being faithful and truthful anymre.
neither do i think tt i will fall in love like hw i used to 5 yrs back.
Nw i drink, get drunk and forget abt ytd. Abt hw he lied and i believe him.
For nearly half a yr, after my last ex bf, he made my life turn in circles.
TT's the last time i believe in love. In truth.
Onli stupid girls think that guys realli loves u.
They jux love sex & getting away wif it.
Ive seen a lot. too much i think love dun exist in r/s.
For these reasons i let the memories stay but the responsibilty get away.
Mayb u guys dun get wad i mean.
cos, this is reality.
look ard~ everyone is doin it.

-nazuki-

Defination of "MY" type of cute guys

Talkin abt cute and atrractive guys...
i think sg realli has limitation for cute guys.
Since for me i think, Ugly or cute guys are all equally bad.
Jux take the cuter ones, tt's my theory.

What would be ur choice of cute guys if u have a choice?

hw bt honggi frm FT island?
he has amazing voice and super atrractive looks!
Tall, nice smile, nice eyes & nice size =)
i love his punkish fashion sense! damn nice









he bt a taiwanese bad boy?
Mike he, 180, tone deaf, nt much talent except
for acting in taiwanese love drama! But he sure have a nice voice <3
I realise mike he look so much better in moving motion then
in pictures~ so lil pic he looked nice.







and i think mike he in this shw is realli a lady killer =X



Or a super cute punkish band guy?
Aki frm a japanese visual rock band, nw this band turning mre towards jazz.
nt tall but nice face shape and smile. Nice piercings.
Eyes are super attractive and have very gd fashion sense.

in yukata..



Rockku~~



Hot~










it's time to nxt!!!
i think aki has pics that are all so hot! XD

or one of Johnny's junior hottest guy?
kazuya kamenashi aka kame. he is definitely the face many girls would fall for.
A lil short in ht, but super nice face. And he did his teeth which made him look
so much better nw!!



one of my fav pic of him~







I love guys tt r nt too big in built and wears t-shirt jeans juz like him!!
wif a converse sneaker <3


Or a 1/2 korean 1/2 japanese.
wif a ht of 185. super nice lips.
nice style! he is a lil cocky thou~





so much i can think of for nw!!!
any one of them is like my boyfriend look XDXD
i bet i cant find these guys in sg~
mayb time for japan!!
another tiring day comes ahead for tmr!!
ggoogoogogoogogogog

-nazuki-

ytd was my last full shift in this wk..
my co really *sigh~~~~~
want us to pay abt 400 each for stock loss.
I mean if they tally as a whole.
I think it's onli fair that w/h and shipments might cos shortages in stock also
yea?
Nt jux blaming the SICs!!
*sigh x inifinity~

Anyway i realli had fun wif my friends ytd.
xiao bai, kathay & val.
Those crazy girls made my night!!! omg la
I have like tons of bruises at my knees =(
i keep bumping into things realli!!!!!
*laughs
Free flow kills =X
LMAO

I am realli wif 3/4 of my life.!!!!
I love my PS team!! crazy ppl but <3


-nazuki-

CRAZY ppl

I swear this 3 days
I haven been seeing the same ppl.
LOL
ME, siao siao & siti
LMAO
we are so crazy ppl!
siti damn funni her laughter.
then siao siao keep talkin craps!! LMAO

but tdy sales like shit!
cos no buying power high tourist..
onli those low buying power ppl =(
hope tmr will be better!!
I full le tmr!!
gg to have fun wif the girls tmr i guess =) LOL

update pics again tmr!!
^^

And listen to this song super addictive



NOBODY but u ~~~~ lallaalal
try learning the steps
u feel like ur legs and hand nt gg the way u want it
LMAO

-nazuki-

I am happy~
and it was some time since i realli smiled & laughed.
Be crazy like any humans living on earth!
I hope i can be like tt for the rest of my life!!
but damn!
Guess wad?
I have many many pimples hope they recover soon!!

=(

tdy wad realli happi,
gt to serve a couple of tourists.
Realli interesting ppl.
Frm australia & japan!
they are damn cool!
jeff & susan.
and a pretty japanese lady!

-nazuki-

I am sad cos i have half of my life to be sad abt.
2 thinds to be happi,
-my family
-my friends

2 things to be sad abt,
-my love
-my wrk

that's why i always tell myself i should be contended.
but wrk was one of the things i was happy for until..
nearly 2mths back.
I started to think if treating ppl nice was right?
And why was i so sad and affected when i was maligned for smth i didnt do.
Are they real humans? probably devils to balance this world.

My love life,
i dont expect much.
Jux meet cute guys and have fun.
tt's all. No mre wateva stupid promises, stupid faithfulness
and blah blah blah.

talkin abt happi things.
I think i realli love my family, except my dad could be very irritating
and nt understanding @ times.
Other than that i jux want peace in my family,
at least like nw~

friends i have a couple of hang ard wif and true hearted friends.

anyway since i haven been talkin photos.
expired ones ^^

frm the oldest to the "lastest"












and tada!!
found smth tt look like my sis LMAO!!



-nazuki-

As people grow older we tend to have lesser friends,
after some time of deep thinking i realise it is ourself
being more choosy and careful due to the past experience.
Sometimes it's the impression tt the person gives us which turns us off.

I dont have a lot of friends,
i can say i onli have like 2 old friends
and a couple of grps tt i can hang ard wif.
One of my old friend dun like to go out,
well i cant possibly keep meeting the other one.
She will also have her own share of friends.

Recently,
I feel that many people are either becoming mre insensitive
or acting like their insensitive.
For this kinda action,
i jux ignore them LMAO.
damn boring to entertain.

Anyway these few days i have been like sleepin damn late almost for 3 wks
i haven been slpin after 3am!!! DAMN IT!
No beauty slp @ all.
but im bored i wan shoppin =(
*sigh~

4~6april chalet
7 L4d wif carol
8 L4d (yes again) wif andy, nel, carol & bf.
9 steamboat & l4d(esther,nel,andy, jasmine, carol & bf) and saw liling lol damn ah sha again i didnt see her at all until she bang on the glass LMAO.hehe liling also playing L4d hahah XD i am gettin sick of the game alrready ZZZZZZZZZZZZ


For tdy, i dunnoe wad i should do LMAO.
But i wan shoppin!! i guess no gf available for shoppin thou.
mayb i should ask my mom
heheeh ^^

Memories stays put but feelings dun stay.
Memories of him being sweet to me,
for those moment i used to cherish i put it behind.
But it is so hard to forget thou nw i dun love him anymre,
or rather i dun have any big crush on him anymemre.
It's jux the after effect, of him being so near my then.

For nw,
I live my life simple, i pamper myself.
And apart frm wrk,
im having fun.

I say im too much of a superficial person; character & outlook.
so sad to say prince charming will nv be here.
but i will live on to my dreams soon~
probably nxt yr probably longer but one day i guess i will
suceed~
wish me luck

-nazuki-

I did my hair.
one pic to post tmr then ul the new ones i took ^^
headin to rest haven been slpin early for 3 wks!
DAMN



-nazuki-

wad is sad should be left behind

I am a very weird person,
when i am undergoing a very sad situation in a r/s or love life.
Especially when i dun get into a r/s wif tt person, I tend to forget.
Tt means tt no matter hw much he tried to lie or hurt me, i forget once he
is "nice" to me.
I wonder hw i could do tt.
*Smiles* but well every1 is weak at some pts i guess.

The only ex i felt angry was my last ex bf.
Angry as in,
I cant believe hw humans could do such a thinng, cos i will nv live up
to my liang xin.
Tt's the reason after a period of 1mth after we broke up,
I nv did contact him.
Cos i rmbred wad i told him,"I dun think i deserve a friend tt i dun trust, tt lies to me."
I believe tt love dont last forever, it fades.
So when the time has come, u can leave me.
Jux have to tell me and go on, nv make use of me,
cos i am a human and seriously dun deserve this.
I am like u, I have a family who worry abt me, and ppl
who care for me.
They wont want me to get hurt and neither do the me deep inside.

I used to like a guy..
hmm let's say we didnt wrk out.
well, tt time im nt sure if he like me b4 or smth.
Thou he said b4, onli he knows it well.
I sorta liked him mre after he told me so.
was a realli petty & stubborn guy who i wouldnt say a pass
for a gd bf, i guess he would made a better friend.
This time round i realise i couldnt give way to the guy i like,
nt like the way i use to be.
I will still go wadeva place i wanna go wif whoever i wanna be wif
even if he's unahppy of it.
cos i realise this is crush, nt a r/s.
and even if im a r/s i dun see why i can be a normal person
hang put wif both guys and girls.
He start callin me names which i hate cum other factors tt i realise, and soon after we didnt contact.
Cos at time i realise if i dun withdrew i will be mre heart broken.
so might as well i shatter it, and move on~
which i eventually did la.

I hope to have better luck nxt time.

-nazuki-

Handphone craze ^^

I did my phone one wk back took a pic of my lovely
phone..
Wif the love,
Purple roses & purple swaroski crystal!!

my phone!!



I imtatated this hehehe



well nt totally the same but after i decorated was quite contended! ^^ *smiles*
yay
i finally off frm wrk and stuffs chalet frm 4to 6~~~ ^w^
till then =)
-nazuki-

A smile A days doesnt burn a sorrow away

Ppl use to say,
If u smile u will be happier.
But i dun feel it anymre. Cos when i smile
i force a thousand nerves to force that "pretty smile" u
see everyday.
I guess tt makes u happy right?

I smile mre tdy? probably some time back?
I shed less tears tt day, probably mre tdy.
Mayb someone was right abt nt living to ripe an old age.
wad's the big deal?

but im happi i have ppl true to me beside me,
sad to say i have some drilling me bit by bit.

If one day u will reach out to me, with a pure heart,
i will give u my hand and u shall nv let it go..
But "u" will nv appear cos, i haven learnt to trust "u".

-nazuki-