EMO no mre!

Ppl are complaining my blog damn EMO la!
lol but of cos i have my happy side!
I have 2 grps of happening friends.
Clubbing kaki & my Kampong friends!
of cos almost enuff to keep me busy on off days!
thnx to them =)

My clubbing kaki.
Xiao bai, kathay & vaal!! sometime my best friend, the noisy girl ruth & co.!! XD
super cool ppl! they always take gd care of me
when i drink!! I fell down so badly the last time at
phuture! and i had a BIG bruise on my knee nw! -_-
Clubbing photos are always damn chui, cos gg club is like
damn sticky then the hair open hole. the face red red!
these are some of the better ones!
the pic which i have a crown is edited to the max liao lol -_-
I hate clubbin photo!!



















NEXT my kampong neighbour!! lol
introducing the very nice "andrew", very PARXX "chris",
very loud "ruth" and lastly the curse queen "esther"
lol! But esther is mostly absent for our "cca" cos she has to wrk shifts
and go bf's place lol!
the rest of us are single la!! LMAO
playing guitar hero wif ruth and andrew took pic!
he damn crazy, i was askin him to take the mic then he dun 1,
he use my cam and took pic of us playin he said it was mre fun =_=







Before all these i took some of the pic
C.viper and vega! ruth vs. andrew! lol
and andrew took us playin too LMAO
damn fun CCA DAY rocks!!







I love this photo <3 lol andrew took!
anyway realli mux thank our bro andrew!! he is like our sister la!! lol
we always mess up his place but he nv complains!!
our best kamping mate man!!



i hope cca day will come soon again!!

-nazuki-

Nightmare, my fear

My best friends will noe wad im talkin abt.
i has a nightmare last night.
Of my ex bf.. Like coming back for mre..
Mre wad?
sex? definitely no!
wad would it be then?


I was wif him for 4rs or so~
until the day we broke up.
Im sad to say he didnt change one little bit.
all of the time, wad ive begged him to stop doing.
he could still do it.
so do it with his new gf.
I have had enough...
becos i know i deserved better.

Gambling kills.
there was once...
I remembered clearly.
i earn 1.3 a mth tt time
after CPF 1.1 u noe hw hard i have to wrk to get OTs.
hw much mre hrs?
he jux take a few hundreds frm me every mth to pay his debt.
and i have to keep a secret for him. frm his sis, frm my family.
once he took 500 frm me.
then 50 again for drinking..
until the end of the wk
when i had onli left wif $5 for a wk,
i cried realli hard...
For tt wk i went hm for dinner, and didnt eat much at wrk,
except for those my in charge bought in the store.
I wake up shivering 6am for 3wks.
I grew realli skinny..(cos at tt moment i knew he had smth wif his ex gf, skinny and tall girl, and i was rather fat then)
i find myself gd for nth..
i dun dare to ask money frm my mom.
cos i wrked becos i dun wanna take a single cent frm them.
i wanna be independent.
So when we broke off, we quarrelled realli badly.
and of cos nt for one reason.
i was disappointed in him cos he let her in.
After we broke up he asked for another 500.
I was freakin sad, i finally understans wad was I to him.
A walkin atm machine.
*smiles

After this I learnt my lesson..
I learn it the hard way.
My heart realli cracked.
so deep till nw i rem hw pain was it.
Love can be promised ppl,
so if ever some1 change his/her love for u.
let it be.
But if he cheats on u heart,
rem nv to let him cheat on ur cash.
becos once it goes..
it will nv be back.
he will onli see u die and nv turn to look at u.
to lend u a helpin hand.

-nazuki-

SICK

Im feelin weird..
Like gt the suan suan feelin my arms,
my stomach...
like i dun feel like eatin...
My head is heavy, and feverish....

damn!
i wan mre rest!
i wan new job

-nazuki-

CCA day

I didnt know i have such lame day until ytd! CCA day sia -_-
created by ruth, andrew & chris(paxx)
LMAO i wanna laugh so much! crazy " kampong friend"
It was a day of shoppin @ Giant @ IMM damn Aunty la!
then after tt we make dinner which is ermmmmmm
eh hemmm
the red wine fried fish SUCKS totally! tasted like bread!!
the noodles also chui! andrew said this when we were at the market," this one
nice i try b4, take take." LOL nice sia!
the mash potato over salty! due to chris's tongue!! chris keep sayin
add somemre.. MORE SALT!!
then ruth join us after we eat the chui meal.
hashbrown was ok. sausage andrew cook de failed! noodles like wanton mee LMAO

















HAPPY DAY~~ YAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol Ps3 we played street fighter and guitar hero
*sweats sia!!!
=))
I love my kampong friends
chris, andrew, ruth * the abscent esther!

-nazuki-

1/4 of my life..

If u have realli try to know abt me,
or some1 who realli understand me.
U will know im unhappy abt 1/4 of my life.
i think it's me killing myself.
i am too protective of myself getting into a serious r/s.
So i give up in engaging in a real r/s or rather say i dun have a chance to.

Guys having gf, having another girl outside.
So i dun see a pt in being faithful and truthful anymre.
neither do i think tt i will fall in love like hw i used to 5 yrs back.
Nw i drink, get drunk and forget abt ytd. Abt hw he lied and i believe him.
For nearly half a yr, after my last ex bf, he made my life turn in circles.
TT's the last time i believe in love. In truth.
Onli stupid girls think that guys realli loves u.
They jux love sex & getting away wif it.
Ive seen a lot. too much i think love dun exist in r/s.
For these reasons i let the memories stay but the responsibilty get away.
Mayb u guys dun get wad i mean.
cos, this is reality.
look ard~ everyone is doin it.

-nazuki-

Defination of "MY" type of cute guys

Talkin abt cute and atrractive guys...
i think sg realli has limitation for cute guys.
Since for me i think, Ugly or cute guys are all equally bad.
Jux take the cuter ones, tt's my theory.

What would be ur choice of cute guys if u have a choice?

hw bt honggi frm FT island?
he has amazing voice and super atrractive looks!
Tall, nice smile, nice eyes & nice size =)
i love his punkish fashion sense! damn nice









he bt a taiwanese bad boy?
Mike he, 180, tone deaf, nt much talent except
for acting in taiwanese love drama! But he sure have a nice voice <3
I realise mike he look so much better in moving motion then
in pictures~ so lil pic he looked nice.







and i think mike he in this shw is realli a lady killer =X



Or a super cute punkish band guy?
Aki frm a japanese visual rock band, nw this band turning mre towards jazz.
nt tall but nice face shape and smile. Nice piercings.
Eyes are super attractive and have very gd fashion sense.

in yukata..



Rockku~~



Hot~










it's time to nxt!!!
i think aki has pics that are all so hot! XD

or one of Johnny's junior hottest guy?
kazuya kamenashi aka kame. he is definitely the face many girls would fall for.
A lil short in ht, but super nice face. And he did his teeth which made him look
so much better nw!!



one of my fav pic of him~







I love guys tt r nt too big in built and wears t-shirt jeans juz like him!!
wif a converse sneaker <3


Or a 1/2 korean 1/2 japanese.
wif a ht of 185. super nice lips.
nice style! he is a lil cocky thou~





so much i can think of for nw!!!
any one of them is like my boyfriend look XDXD
i bet i cant find these guys in sg~
mayb time for japan!!
another tiring day comes ahead for tmr!!
ggoogoogogoogogogog

-nazuki-