wad is sad should be left behind

I am a very weird person,
when i am undergoing a very sad situation in a r/s or love life.
Especially when i dun get into a r/s wif tt person, I tend to forget.
Tt means tt no matter hw much he tried to lie or hurt me, i forget once he
is "nice" to me.
I wonder hw i could do tt.
*Smiles* but well every1 is weak at some pts i guess.

The only ex i felt angry was my last ex bf.
Angry as in,
I cant believe hw humans could do such a thinng, cos i will nv live up
to my liang xin.
Tt's the reason after a period of 1mth after we broke up,
I nv did contact him.
Cos i rmbred wad i told him,"I dun think i deserve a friend tt i dun trust, tt lies to me."
I believe tt love dont last forever, it fades.
So when the time has come, u can leave me.
Jux have to tell me and go on, nv make use of me,
cos i am a human and seriously dun deserve this.
I am like u, I have a family who worry abt me, and ppl
who care for me.
They wont want me to get hurt and neither do the me deep inside.

I used to like a guy..
hmm let's say we didnt wrk out.
well, tt time im nt sure if he like me b4 or smth.
Thou he said b4, onli he knows it well.
I sorta liked him mre after he told me so.
was a realli petty & stubborn guy who i wouldnt say a pass
for a gd bf, i guess he would made a better friend.
This time round i realise i couldnt give way to the guy i like,
nt like the way i use to be.
I will still go wadeva place i wanna go wif whoever i wanna be wif
even if he's unahppy of it.
cos i realise this is crush, nt a r/s.
and even if im a r/s i dun see why i can be a normal person
hang put wif both guys and girls.
He start callin me names which i hate cum other factors tt i realise, and soon after we didnt contact.
Cos at time i realise if i dun withdrew i will be mre heart broken.
so might as well i shatter it, and move on~
which i eventually did la.

I hope to have better luck nxt time.

-nazuki-