A smile A days doesnt burn a sorrow away

Ppl use to say,
If u smile u will be happier.
But i dun feel it anymre. Cos when i smile
i force a thousand nerves to force that "pretty smile" u
see everyday.
I guess tt makes u happy right?

I smile mre tdy? probably some time back?
I shed less tears tt day, probably mre tdy.
Mayb someone was right abt nt living to ripe an old age.
wad's the big deal?

but im happi i have ppl true to me beside me,
sad to say i have some drilling me bit by bit.

If one day u will reach out to me, with a pure heart,
i will give u my hand and u shall nv let it go..
But "u" will nv appear cos, i haven learnt to trust "u".

-nazuki-