1/4 of my life..

If u have realli try to know abt me,
or some1 who realli understand me.
U will know im unhappy abt 1/4 of my life.
i think it's me killing myself.
i am too protective of myself getting into a serious r/s.
So i give up in engaging in a real r/s or rather say i dun have a chance to.

Guys having gf, having another girl outside.
So i dun see a pt in being faithful and truthful anymre.
neither do i think tt i will fall in love like hw i used to 5 yrs back.
Nw i drink, get drunk and forget abt ytd. Abt hw he lied and i believe him.
For nearly half a yr, after my last ex bf, he made my life turn in circles.
TT's the last time i believe in love. In truth.
Onli stupid girls think that guys realli loves u.
They jux love sex & getting away wif it.
Ive seen a lot. too much i think love dun exist in r/s.
For these reasons i let the memories stay but the responsibilty get away.
Mayb u guys dun get wad i mean.
cos, this is reality.
look ard~ everyone is doin it.

-nazuki-