Is a r/s really hard to maintain?

I have to say it's pretty hard
becos human nature is 80% selfish.
most of the times we think of the situation as we are the victims
and forget hw our partner sacrifice for us.

I haven been in a r/s for abt a yr plus.
27.05.09, my new r/s starts wif a happy jabroni=)
Even thou nw a lot of factors affects the r/s, i still love him a lot.
I used to be very lose on controllin my partner(or as in ppl i go out wif)
after my last r/s.
Cos i hate the feeling of heartache and quarrels that lead on to nth
but mre misunderstanding and tears.
Recently due to the new time for my new job, things start to get a lil
hard and friction is btn both of us. Cos my wrk time affects me thus
indirectly affects him.
I know it wont be easy, but i hope things will get a lil mre better
as time goes.
I hope he didnt get the wrong msg of wad i told him.

My bf jux needs to be some1 who has a stable career(nt as in he have to earn 3k/4k per mth) but enuff jux for himself cos i am financial stable for myself.
Ppl who knows me probably rmbr me sayin i wan a 180 bf, cute, handsome and etc.
But i think jeremy is gd enuff, he has nice smile, cute face, nt 180(but to me it's a comfortable ht.), listens when i talk and would nv pick a fight wif me and most of the time he is very sensitive.

If he is nt ard i probably would miss him doing some weird noises wif his voice,
hugging me tight when he is fast asleep and he would nv fail to say i love you too
if he heard me saying i love u, asked me if i was bored when he is playing dota. Wad mre should i ask for ? for having such a gd bf.
I hope he dont get the wrong idea *sigh~
It's just so hard to convey a msg to some1 u really love.
It's so freakin hard man!!
and this time i really fall deep. Deep down!
I jux hope that he still know that i love him,
and i hope he loves me jux as much as i do.

-loves, nazuki-