Nazuki

What happened to my blogger!!!

2009-08-06T00:23:00.000-07:00

My blog cant ul any pics =(
why? If anyone knows why pls text me via Blogger.

anyways.
I have been staying over wif my bf so haven been updating,
but i guess this few days i will be able to update asap =)

have been wrkin wrking wrking,
wrk has been ok, but was sick for these 3days.
Havin fever on and off for 2 days.
Tdy is a lil better but i think mayb cos i have ate too much
heaty food, im havin headaches and feel the body very heaty sia!
then the pimples also =( kaoz!!
I think i also pass my virus to my bf!!!
He is gonna see a doc ltr man! was suppose to meet him but yea i want
him to recover asap!!! =)
Missed him so much!!
Gonna head to the mall in a min !!
update mre ltr =)

-nazuki-

It will be over soon

2009-07-28T10:08:00.000-07:00

Let time heals everything.
Bits and pieces of things seemed to be coming into
the r/s.
I know my emotions made him feel sad & affected, but i cant
help it to feel sad for my friend tt was hurt. I understand tt it's a 2person
thing and situation right nw is tt my bf's friend wont wanna see me and it's vice versa, but these made meetups for me and my bf in future harder and tt makes me sad.
I know my bf made a pt to make it up to me n made a pt to meet me tmr, but im jux afraid tt halfway thru if i dunnoe where to go, probably he will join his friends again. I understand my bf enjoys playing dota n hangin out wif his friends, so i think i cant be selfish and stop wad he enjoys doing. Jux hopes that the unnecessary weirdness will be gone soon...

I've been thinkin abt my future, worried abt my future.
Wad should i continue to wrk as? should i go take a diploma in makeup?
Will i be able to support a house with my own financial status?
Does he know that i need him to wrk hard wif me? Am i selfish to be asking for wad ive ask? **********

But for now i guess, jux take a step at the time, cos god has already planned our lives. Do whatever u feel like for tt moment for nw, cos u know that at tt moment tt's wad u felt like doing.

-nazuki-

Tomodachi

2009-07-28T05:05:00.000-07:00

My babe has been feeling very down, probably all she need is
a lil mre time, a lil more space, a lil mre strength.
I always believe god is fair, when he takes away smth frm u,
he might give u smth in return and as time goes by u realise
wad u have gone thru has mould u into wad u are tdy.
Babe, all i hope for is for u to feel better and i know Mr. right
jux isnt here yet. Mayb some ppl wouldnt know hw much pain u are gg
thru, but i can feel it. I want u to smile at the memories that the r/s has brought
u and learning to let go makes u stronger, u will nv know hw strong u can be
until u try. I know u can do it, we'll always be there for u, cos we know deep
inside of u is smth beautiful. =)

Handle wif care

2009-07-25T11:41:00.000-07:00

A r/s probably is one of the hardest thing to juggle
in life. Learn to handle it with care, cos they are like
fragile glasses; If it ever break, after the pieces are fixed together,
the evidence of the glass being broken before will stay there forever.

I just hope things get better each day and thr r/s's foundation will get stronger.
No one says it's easy to manitain a stable r/s, so stay strong. I believe that no matter wad happened or hw angry or frustrated u get in an argument wif someone u love, give him/her some
cool off time and space for each other, so that during these period, cool ur heads and u'll realise jux hw much u have loved him/her.

I am someone who doesnt pt out the gd things my partner has done nw and then, but that doesnt mean i have forget everything he had done. Small things frm him askin "eh why u emo?" makes me think he cares abt hw i feel and wanna know wad's goin on, hunting down a particular flavour chips for me, walking from parklane to wisma to pick me up frm wrk.. etc
Little things adds up to making big differnces. Love is...
When u dont mind doing a lil mre for him,
When u reshuffle time out jux for him,
When u care abt his feelings,
abt being able to trust him,
being faithful to each other,
learning to forgive of u cant forget..

It's crazy that no matter hw much i see him, i still missed him fcuking much!
But i'll learnt to nt over do the meetups to have space for myself and leave some space where he can breath i woudlnt wanna see him feelin breathless in this r/s either.
=)
love is jux so damn fcuking crazy!

-nazuki-

2009-07-24T10:20:00.000-07:00

Love is so hard to describe..
It's realli weird that no matter wad shit happened,
u still find urself knowing hw much he meant to u,
and hw much u loved him.

I believe one day i will see rainbow after rain,
and see ourself smiling at each other again.
Mayb nt anytime soon, but one day..

yea, probably bad day for both me and him.
*sigh~~~ hai hai
But probably i have always been draggy in wad i wanna say.
I jux hope one day we'll smile again seeing that we have
gone thru so much things together and still sticking together.
walking hand in hand.

It's not easy for a guy to be able to understand me.
I can become very unreasonable and selfish when i start to think
he might be cheating on me and stuffs. "Sorry" jux doesnt change
wad happened that day. And i didnt even give him time to explain
and cut him off. Trust was smth i lack of, but im learning to trust,
probably too late but i'll still give my best shot.
I see him as my boyfriend criteria, i love him and he loves me back.
Those " qi hua" in the conver, left us with burning wounds in the heart.

Jux realise that the wrd " sorry " is a very sad wrd that doesnt put
sadness to an ending.
Probably someday someone might come up with a better word with a mre sincere
meaning.

Very very sian.
Things jux wont be the same anymre. Probably, mayb, if,,,,

If we hold on,
we'll see that rainbow together.
But that is when u still wanna hold my hand and
nt getting tired of me.

-nazuki-

Action speaks louder than wrds

2009-07-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

For me i realli believe that action speaks louder than wrk.
My in charge was very angry with me some days ago when i failed to
open shop on time, and i didnt inform her earlier on. And i felt like
lost her trust in me.

So i followed accoridng that i sign in 15mins earlier tt day, and tdy she talked to me.
And i felt like she was like my ex in charge who taught me a lot. Probably she felt me trying hard to make it up to her, and she explained herself for her being so strict. Anyway action speaks louder than wrds!!! cos for once i felt like she understand that i am sincere =)and probably she understand hw much i need this jov for a living.

Hmmmmm, anyway yr by yr, i felt time passing by faster or is it when u hit 20
u felt like time passed even faster? Well i realli have no idea. Im like 21 in 6 mths time, and i realli realli hope i could move on to another stage in life.
And if u dun know wad i am talking abt i am talkin abt getting married, having a stable income and utimately a home- a place to feel safe to live in. But too soon to talk abt anything cos our r/s is like nearly 2 mths old. LOL but i am like thinking SOOOOO far!!!! *laughs

And yea tomorrow is my off day!!!
yays but like gt nth to do~~~ !!! *sigh
sg is a fcuking damn boring place!!
probably time to wrk hard and go taiwan wif my babe again!!!!
like hw we went there last yr!

Tdy was jux another wrkin day, and yea i meet my bf like for 15min or so and
i left for hm wasnt feelin very well either and he wanted to acc his friends.
But yea gd to be @ hm!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ate maggi mee!! the curry noodles damn nice!!

My wishlist
- new bag
- wrk harder for higher position
- plan financially for my future
- travel to japan
- new pair of slippers
- new pair of contact lens
- new hopes!!!

LMAO
im for sure a damn greedy girl!!!!!

-nazuki-

Different

2009-07-15T12:10:00.000-07:00

Difference can be beautiful like hw ur partner is different
from u, and hw he made u smile even thou there's a difference btn both of u.
If u realli treaure it and wanna make it wrk, u will wrk it out eventually.

I aint a perfect girl and i make a lot of mistakes in love, in life, in wrk.
I used to nt learn frm my mistake.
If ever i quarrel wif in a r/s in the past i probably said those "qi hua" and the conversation
would end up with him hanging up on me, and me crying very hard and depressed.
I dunnoe if talkin would help, but im trying it nw. I try my best to put anger and ego aside by askin wad happened and even dun mind to apologise first. I jux hoped my msg could be conveyed to that some1 really impt to me. And probably i admit im bd at sensitivity towards my partner, mayb he has a hard time gg thru everything and he is nt saying anything. But for now, i will ask till i get to know wad exactly he feels and understand him inside out. I wouldnt blame him if he hurts me, cos i've hurt him as much. I have move out frm depression and im nt gonna fall in deep again =) So i wanna feel like changing the way things wrk it abt having mre conversations. I am very forgetful of wad i've said or things that are said to me. Probably making it hard for my bf to understand me. But im sure if he loves me as much as i do, he will find his way to bring me to another stage in life. I hope his heart finds me soon.
I realli fell in love with him, i hope he will nv give up on me like he said.

Love is...
feeling hurt
feeling happy
feeling selfish
feeling loved
feeling confused
feeling happiness

Love is like hw i loved him and him loving me.

2009-07-15T11:33:00.001-07:00

Probably in life,
the most successful thing i could do is to wrk.
To wrk non-stop everyday.
Probably ppl like me would know wad i am talkin abt.

I tried so hard to make it wrk, it's jux i wondered wad
happened again?
Probably wad i can do is to earn a stable income every month,
groom myself wif whatever shit i need.

Probably i would be a successful makeup artist or a store manger
working fucking hard for money.
Probably tt's all i know wad to do.
No matter hw much i try it seems like nth could have wrk.

-nazuki-

2009-07-12T11:32:00.000-07:00

*sigh~
It's sad that thru arguements we finally find out,
what was :
- misunderstood
- taken granted for
- the most impt pts of gettin a balanced r/s
- broken (as in promise) in the r/s

But my friend told me this, take all the sad part in life as
beautiful things and u will feel better. Cos sad things are
part of a beautiful life that makes wad u will be in the future.
I agree with her saying.

Humans in nature is very forgetful, i forget for a moment but i wont forget
forever cos for me u are always impt, at least for now.
I have to say i broke promises and absolutely gt no rights to say anything.
I always remember this now, no matter hw angry i am, i wont forget who matters to me the most. My love, my friends will always be in my heart always.

Im trying as hard to make the r/s, trying to be mre open and less petty
to nt impt stuffs, im bitting my teeth and holding on, pls rem it takes 2 to wrk out.
I dont wanna do it alone, I need u.

If I reach out my hand,
hold on tight.
If I ever cry,
dry my tears.
If I feel sad and helpess,
give me a hug.
If I look sad,
jux give me ur sweetest smile and u will
see me smiling.

But ever if u need anything,
even in the middle of the night,
I want u to know that i dont mind
to rush over to give u that smile,or a warm hug or
even a passionate kiss.
I will b there for u whenever i can,

Thou love causes heartaches, it makes me feel i
lived for smth.

-nazuki-

Is a r/s really hard to maintain?

2009-07-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

I have to say it's pretty hard
becos human nature is 80% selfish.
most of the times we think of the situation as we are the victims
and forget hw our partner sacrifice for us.

I haven been in a r/s for abt a yr plus.
27.05.09, my new r/s starts wif a happy jabroni=)
Even thou nw a lot of factors affects the r/s, i still love him a lot.
I used to be very lose on controllin my partner(or as in ppl i go out wif)
after my last r/s.
Cos i hate the feeling of heartache and quarrels that lead on to nth
but mre misunderstanding and tears.
Recently due to the new time for my new job, things start to get a lil
hard and friction is btn both of us. Cos my wrk time affects me thus
indirectly affects him.
I know it wont be easy, but i hope things will get a lil mre better
as time goes.
I hope he didnt get the wrong msg of wad i told him.

My bf jux needs to be some1 who has a stable career(nt as in he have to earn 3k/4k per mth) but enuff jux for himself cos i am financial stable for myself.
Ppl who knows me probably rmbr me sayin i wan a 180 bf, cute, handsome and etc.
But i think jeremy is gd enuff, he has nice smile, cute face, nt 180(but to me it's a comfortable ht.), listens when i talk and would nv pick a fight wif me and most of the time he is very sensitive.

If he is nt ard i probably would miss him doing some weird noises wif his voice,
hugging me tight when he is fast asleep and he would nv fail to say i love you too
if he heard me saying i love u, asked me if i was bored when he is playing dota. Wad mre should i ask for ? for having such a gd bf.
I hope he dont get the wrong idea *sigh~
It's just so hard to convey a msg to some1 u really love.
It's so freakin hard man!!
and this time i really fall deep. Deep down!
I jux hope that he still know that i love him,
and i hope he loves me jux as much as i do.

-loves, nazuki-

UPDATES!!!!

2009-06-19T04:52:00.000-07:00

Haven been blogging for DAMN freakin long.
Busy wif personal stuffs abd tired!!
extreme!! I typically gt no time for anything!!
And one mre thing ARGGH end of mth liao gettin poor!!!
I wonder hw long it takes for me to save up for diploma in makeup.
I jux checked the fees to study the whole makeup course is like 3425 now~~!!!
wooww! and that i think excludes the makeup kit and tools!!!

Humans are jux nt contended enuff i guess,we jux want ourself to be better each time.
Im still stuck in life findin wad i would like to wrk as, or rather wrk for.
And careers that i have chose is always related to cust and provides service for ppl.
I'm seriously is a lil tired of retailin line but *sigh i guesss would be like this for the moment?I wish i can be a professional makeup artist I wonder wad would b next.. lmao

Quite stress, cos haven been undergoing pressure.
ARGHHHH come on man! where have the happy times gone?
DAMN i prey a lil mre laughter up ahead n a lil lesser stress pushin on me
dun be depressed NAZU!! heheheh =))

-nazuki-

2009-06-04T11:23:00.000-07:00

Have been damn tired but happy in a way tt,
the r/s is gg ok.
I dun ask for much but see hw it goes...
But I have to remind myself again, Humans are nt perfect
tt includes me so i shouldnt ask for much.
And i guess wad matter is to see the positive things tt he do for me.

-send to the bus stop and waited for me to take the bus
-carried my heavier carrier
-wake up early with me
-didnt have enough slp but didnt complain and throw tantrum
-holds onto my hands thou sometimes my palm turns sweaty
-go wherever i feel like going
-eat whatever i wanted to eat
-stop doing whatever im nt happy with

So wad right have i gt to say he's nt a gd bf?
LOL
appreaciated im for being my bf!! XD

-nazuki-

My JABass part II

2009-06-03T02:56:00.000-07:00

After lan shop was prata @ ah neh ah neh with jrock, esther, ruth, yuki and co.
hmmmmMMmmm after tt head hm wif my BFF ruth and esther back to cck.
ZZZ till nxt morning then esther didnt manage to wake up cos she slept @ 6am lol.
But i meet JABasss and watched movie, NATM2.. was a retard comedy cum romance shw but was rather funny, went back wif him after tt, he gave me his baby photo.. LOL Met ruth ytd aldso =)

Addicted to this song,

I can replay it a thousand times!!!!
=))
It's not goobye~

-nazuki-

My JABass

2009-06-01T21:54:00.000-07:00

This JABass!! damn ass la! called me a ching chong pok girl =(
http://djjabroni.livejournal.com/ !!!! In his blog LOL
in return i call him JABass!!

Ytd meet up wif him after my 2 to 6 @ LP
then went to evo and look for yuki.
Jrock, ruth & esther joined in later for counter strike
and L4D game after tt!! damn fun i swear!
Counter strike was like -_-
cos i couldnt tell the difference btn counter and terrorists.
then L4d was like fcuk sia..
First round was guys vs. girls, then jitao owned!!
Jabass keep killing me also =((
ASSHOLE!!! we were in the lan shop like damn loud!!!
can hear ruth's laughter, jeremy's scream and my own scream.
Yuki's "CB" was like damn loud.

............................... to be continued.

-nazuki-

My lists of..

2009-06-01T12:44:00.000-07:00

Things i need to buy:
-eye makeup remover
-new tops
-new medicine for my pimples
-new pair of mre than 3inch heels

Things i need to do:
-My nails!!!
-speak leseer vulgurities(bring nagged)
-stop smoking any cigratte when im sad
-Say when i am unhappy
-more beauty sleep
-update my blog wif pics
-play PS3 wif my kampong friends
-learn english =(
-Be happy
-Buy my mom a bdae gift b4 12june

-nazuki-

OEI stop laughin at nazu no BF K!

2009-05-29T10:37:00.000-07:00

*laughs
Im attached to my nerdy ang moh kan tan bf, jabroni XD
Seriously i have to brush up my english =(
20th was like hw it started off...
and together officially on 27th at day break LOL
like we chat all the way frm dawn till 7am!! Damn crazy la

He is nt super tall but has nice smile, super high pitch talkin voice(nt till he sound like a trans.),a lil skinnier than normal.
I finally understand that superficial of a person will be put aside the moment
u feel love. Something jux makes u feel attracted to him.
Like i felt love =)
Nt to say anything too soon as the r/s jux started,
but i wanna say im giving love a chance.

Hw i meet him?
My BFF is a slagger queen! It was when she asked me to go chill wif her at home club,
and tt's where i met jabroni together wif his BFF yuki.

Am i happy now?
I would say yes.
Cos it's a plus pt i know ppl he hang ard wif and he knows ppl i hang ard wif.
A good start off so we will be ok wif going out as a grp together.

-nazuki-

If..

2009-05-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

I have been given a chance again to choose,
I wouldnt make he same choice again.
I will make myself happier.
And do a lil me smth to make myself smile.

I will take back wad i've said and done.
I will wan to tuen back the time, to make
sure i dont go thru all the shit ive gone thru.

But one day,
I hope he will make me smile again.
To find myself again.
To be happy again.

-nazuki-

EMO no mre!

2009-05-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

Ppl are complaining my blog damn EMO la!
lol but of cos i have my happy side!
I have 2 grps of happening friends.
Clubbing kaki & my Kampong friends!
of cos almost enuff to keep me busy on off days!
thnx to them =)

My clubbing kaki.
Xiao bai, kathay & vaal!! sometime my best friend, the noisy girl ruth & co.!! XD
super cool ppl! they always take gd care of me
when i drink!! I fell down so badly the last time at
phuture! and i had a BIG bruise on my knee nw! -_-
Clubbing photos are always damn chui, cos gg club is like
damn sticky then the hair open hole. the face red red!
these are some of the better ones!
the pic which i have a crown is edited to the max liao lol -_-
I hate clubbin photo!!

NEXT my kampong neighbour!! lol
introducing the very nice "andrew", very PARXX "chris",
very loud "ruth" and lastly the curse queen "esther"
lol! But esther is mostly absent for our "cca" cos she has to wrk shifts
and go bf's place lol!
the rest of us are single la!! LMAO
playing guitar hero wif ruth and andrew took pic!
he damn crazy, i was askin him to take the mic then he dun 1,
he use my cam and took pic of us playin he said it was mre fun =_=

Before all these i took some of the pic
C.viper and vega! ruth vs. andrew! lol
and andrew took us playin too LMAO
damn fun CCA DAY rocks!!

I love this photo <3 lol andrew took!
anyway realli mux thank our bro andrew!! he is like our sister la!! lol
we always mess up his place but he nv complains!!
our best kamping mate man!!

i hope cca day will come soon again!!

-nazuki-

Nightmare, my fear

2009-05-12T10:25:00.000-07:00

My best friends will noe wad im talkin abt.
i has a nightmare last night.
Of my ex bf.. Like coming back for mre..
Mre wad?
sex? definitely no!
wad would it be then?

I was wif him for 4rs or so~
until the day we broke up.
Im sad to say he didnt change one little bit.
all of the time, wad ive begged him to stop doing.
he could still do it.
so do it with his new gf.
I have had enough...
becos i know i deserved better.

Gambling kills.
there was once...
I remembered clearly.
i earn 1.3 a mth tt time
after CPF 1.1 u noe hw hard i have to wrk to get OTs.
hw much mre hrs?
he jux take a few hundreds frm me every mth to pay his debt.
and i have to keep a secret for him. frm his sis, frm my family.
once he took 500 frm me.
then 50 again for drinking..
until the end of the wk
when i had onli left wif $5 for a wk,
i cried realli hard...
For tt wk i went hm for dinner, and didnt eat much at wrk,
except for those my in charge bought in the store.
I wake up shivering 6am for 3wks.
I grew realli skinny..(cos at tt moment i knew he had smth wif his ex gf, skinny and tall girl, and i was rather fat then)
i find myself gd for nth..
i dun dare to ask money frm my mom.
cos i wrked becos i dun wanna take a single cent frm them.
i wanna be independent.
So when we broke off, we quarrelled realli badly.
and of cos nt for one reason.
i was disappointed in him cos he let her in.
After we broke up he asked for another 500.
I was freakin sad, i finally understans wad was I to him.
A walkin atm machine.
*smiles

After this I learnt my lesson..
I learn it the hard way.
My heart realli cracked.
so deep till nw i rem hw pain was it.
Love can be promised ppl,
so if ever some1 change his/her love for u.
let it be.
But if he cheats on u heart,
rem nv to let him cheat on ur cash.
becos once it goes..
it will nv be back.
he will onli see u die and nv turn to look at u.
to lend u a helpin hand.

-nazuki-

SICK

2009-05-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

Im feelin weird..
Like gt the suan suan feelin my arms,
my stomach...
like i dun feel like eatin...
My head is heavy, and feverish....

damn!
i wan mre rest!
i wan new job

-nazuki-

CCA day

2009-05-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

I didnt know i have such lame day until ytd! CCA day sia -_-
created by ruth, andrew & chris(paxx)
LMAO i wanna laugh so much! crazy " kampong friend"
It was a day of shoppin @ Giant @ IMM damn Aunty la!
then after tt we make dinner which is ermmmmmm
eh hemmm
the red wine fried fish SUCKS totally! tasted like bread!!
the noodles also chui! andrew said this when we were at the market," this one
nice i try b4, take take." LOL nice sia!
the mash potato over salty! due to chris's tongue!! chris keep sayin
add somemre.. MORE SALT!!
then ruth join us after we eat the chui meal.
hashbrown was ok. sausage andrew cook de failed! noodles like wanton mee LMAO

HAPPY DAY~~ YAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol Ps3 we played street fighter and guitar hero
*sweats sia!!!
=))
I love my kampong friends
chris, andrew, ruth * the abscent esther!

-nazuki-

1/4 of my life..

2009-04-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

If u have realli try to know abt me,
or some1 who realli understand me.
U will know im unhappy abt 1/4 of my life.
i think it's me killing myself.
i am too protective of myself getting into a serious r/s.
So i give up in engaging in a real r/s or rather say i dun have a chance to.

Guys having gf, having another girl outside.
So i dun see a pt in being faithful and truthful anymre.
neither do i think tt i will fall in love like hw i used to 5 yrs back.
Nw i drink, get drunk and forget abt ytd. Abt hw he lied and i believe him.
For nearly half a yr, after my last ex bf, he made my life turn in circles.
TT's the last time i believe in love. In truth.
Onli stupid girls think that guys realli loves u.
They jux love sex & getting away wif it.
Ive seen a lot. too much i think love dun exist in r/s.
For these reasons i let the memories stay but the responsibilty get away.
Mayb u guys dun get wad i mean.
cos, this is reality.
look ard~ everyone is doin it.

-nazuki-

Defination of "MY" type of cute guys

2009-04-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

Talkin abt cute and atrractive guys...
i think sg realli has limitation for cute guys.
Since for me i think, Ugly or cute guys are all equally bad.
Jux take the cuter ones, tt's my theory.

What would be ur choice of cute guys if u have a choice?

hw bt honggi frm FT island?
he has amazing voice and super atrractive looks!
Tall, nice smile, nice eyes & nice size =)
i love his punkish fashion sense! damn nice

he bt a taiwanese bad boy?
Mike he, 180, tone deaf, nt much talent except
for acting in taiwanese love drama! But he sure have a nice voice <3
I realise mike he look so much better in moving motion then
in pictures~ so lil pic he looked nice.

and i think mike he in this shw is realli a lady killer =X

Or a super cute punkish band guy?
Aki frm a japanese visual rock band, nw this band turning mre towards jazz.
nt tall but nice face shape and smile. Nice piercings.
Eyes are super attractive and have very gd fashion sense.

in yukata..

Rockku~~

Hot~

it's time to nxt!!!
i think aki has pics that are all so hot! XD

or one of Johnny's junior hottest guy?
kazuya kamenashi aka kame. he is definitely the face many girls would fall for.
A lil short in ht, but super nice face. And he did his teeth which made him look
so much better nw!!

one of my fav pic of him~

I love guys tt r nt too big in built and wears t-shirt jeans juz like him!!
wif a converse sneaker <3

Or a 1/2 korean 1/2 japanese.
wif a ht of 185. super nice lips.
nice style! he is a lil cocky thou~

so much i can think of for nw!!!
any one of them is like my boyfriend look XDXD
i bet i cant find these guys in sg~
mayb time for japan!!
another tiring day comes ahead for tmr!!
ggoogoogogoogogogog

-nazuki-

2009-04-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

ytd was my last full shift in this wk..
my co really *sigh~~~~~
want us to pay abt 400 each for stock loss.
I mean if they tally as a whole.
I think it's onli fair that w/h and shipments might cos shortages in stock also
yea?
Nt jux blaming the SICs!!
*sigh x inifinity~

Anyway i realli had fun wif my friends ytd.
xiao bai, kathay & val.
Those crazy girls made my night!!! omg la
I have like tons of bruises at my knees =(
i keep bumping into things realli!!!!!
*laughs
Free flow kills =X
LMAO

I am realli wif 3/4 of my life.!!!!
I love my PS team!! crazy ppl but <3

-nazuki-

CRAZY ppl

2009-04-21T10:07:00.001-07:00

I swear this 3 days
I haven been seeing the same ppl.
LOL
ME, siao siao & siti
LMAO
we are so crazy ppl!
siti damn funni her laughter.
then siao siao keep talkin craps!! LMAO

but tdy sales like shit!
cos no buying power high tourist..
onli those low buying power ppl =(
hope tmr will be better!!
I full le tmr!!
gg to have fun wif the girls tmr i guess =) LOL

update pics again tmr!!
^^

And listen to this song super addictive

NOBODY but u ~~~~ lallaalal
try learning the steps
u feel like ur legs and hand nt gg the way u want it
LMAO

-nazuki-

2009-04-20T09:52:00.000-07:00

I am happy~
and it was some time since i realli smiled & laughed.
Be crazy like any humans living on earth!
I hope i can be like tt for the rest of my life!!
but damn!
Guess wad?
I have many many pimples hope they recover soon!!

=(

tdy wad realli happi,
gt to serve a couple of tourists.
Realli interesting ppl.
Frm australia & japan!
they are damn cool!
jeff & susan.
and a pretty japanese lady!

-nazuki-

2009-04-18T10:34:00.001-07:00

I am sad cos i have half of my life to be sad abt.
2 thinds to be happi,
-my family
-my friends

2 things to be sad abt,
-my love
-my wrk

that's why i always tell myself i should be contended.
but wrk was one of the things i was happy for until..
nearly 2mths back.
I started to think if treating ppl nice was right?
And why was i so sad and affected when i was maligned for smth i didnt do.
Are they real humans? probably devils to balance this world.

My love life,
i dont expect much.
Jux meet cute guys and have fun.
tt's all. No mre wateva stupid promises, stupid faithfulness
and blah blah blah.

talkin abt happi things.
I think i realli love my family, except my dad could be very irritating
and nt understanding @ times.
Other than that i jux want peace in my family,
at least like nw~

friends i have a couple of hang ard wif and true hearted friends.

anyway since i haven been talkin photos.
expired ones ^^

frm the oldest to the "lastest"

and tada!!
found smth tt look like my sis LMAO!!

-nazuki-

2009-04-10T00:02:00.000-07:00

As people grow older we tend to have lesser friends,
after some time of deep thinking i realise it is ourself
being more choosy and careful due to the past experience.
Sometimes it's the impression tt the person gives us which turns us off.

I dont have a lot of friends,
i can say i onli have like 2 old friends
and a couple of grps tt i can hang ard wif.
One of my old friend dun like to go out,
well i cant possibly keep meeting the other one.
She will also have her own share of friends.

Recently,
I feel that many people are either becoming mre insensitive
or acting like their insensitive.
For this kinda action,
i jux ignore them LMAO.
damn boring to entertain.

Anyway these few days i have been like sleepin damn late almost for 3 wks
i haven been slpin after 3am!!! DAMN IT!
No beauty slp @ all.
but im bored i wan shoppin =(
*sigh~

4~6april chalet
7 L4d wif carol
8 L4d (yes again) wif andy, nel, carol & bf.
9 steamboat & l4d(esther,nel,andy, jasmine, carol & bf) and saw liling lol damn ah sha again i didnt see her at all until she bang on the glass LMAO.hehe liling also playing L4d hahah XD i am gettin sick of the game alrready ZZZZZZZZZZZZ

For tdy, i dunnoe wad i should do LMAO.
But i wan shoppin!! i guess no gf available for shoppin thou.
mayb i should ask my mom
heheeh ^^

2009-04-08T12:54:00.000-07:00

Memories stays put but feelings dun stay.
Memories of him being sweet to me,
for those moment i used to cherish i put it behind.
But it is so hard to forget thou nw i dun love him anymre,
or rather i dun have any big crush on him anymemre.
It's jux the after effect, of him being so near my then.

For nw,
I live my life simple, i pamper myself.
And apart frm wrk,
im having fun.

I say im too much of a superficial person; character & outlook.
so sad to say prince charming will nv be here.
but i will live on to my dreams soon~
probably nxt yr probably longer but one day i guess i will
suceed~
wish me luck

-nazuki-

2009-04-07T13:19:00.000-07:00

I did my hair.
one pic to post tmr then ul the new ones i took ^^
headin to rest haven been slpin early for 3 wks!
DAMN

-nazuki-

wad is sad should be left behind

2009-04-07T12:50:00.000-07:00

I am a very weird person,
when i am undergoing a very sad situation in a r/s or love life.
Especially when i dun get into a r/s wif tt person, I tend to forget.
Tt means tt no matter hw much he tried to lie or hurt me, i forget once he
is "nice" to me.
I wonder hw i could do tt.
*Smiles* but well every1 is weak at some pts i guess.

The only ex i felt angry was my last ex bf.
Angry as in,
I cant believe hw humans could do such a thinng, cos i will nv live up
to my liang xin.
Tt's the reason after a period of 1mth after we broke up,
I nv did contact him.
Cos i rmbred wad i told him,"I dun think i deserve a friend tt i dun trust, tt lies to me."
I believe tt love dont last forever, it fades.
So when the time has come, u can leave me.
Jux have to tell me and go on, nv make use of me,
cos i am a human and seriously dun deserve this.
I am like u, I have a family who worry abt me, and ppl
who care for me.
They wont want me to get hurt and neither do the me deep inside.

I used to like a guy..
hmm let's say we didnt wrk out.
well, tt time im nt sure if he like me b4 or smth.
Thou he said b4, onli he knows it well.
I sorta liked him mre after he told me so.
was a realli petty & stubborn guy who i wouldnt say a pass
for a gd bf, i guess he would made a better friend.
This time round i realise i couldnt give way to the guy i like,
nt like the way i use to be.
I will still go wadeva place i wanna go wif whoever i wanna be wif
even if he's unahppy of it.
cos i realise this is crush, nt a r/s.
and even if im a r/s i dun see why i can be a normal person
hang put wif both guys and girls.
He start callin me names which i hate cum other factors tt i realise, and soon after we didnt contact.
Cos at time i realise if i dun withdrew i will be mre heart broken.
so might as well i shatter it, and move on~
which i eventually did la.

I hope to have better luck nxt time.

-nazuki-

Handphone craze ^^

2009-04-03T21:29:00.000-07:00

I did my phone one wk back took a pic of my lovely
phone..
Wif the love,
Purple roses & purple swaroski crystal!!

my phone!!

I imtatated this hehehe

well nt totally the same but after i decorated was quite contended! ^^ *smiles*
yay
i finally off frm wrk and stuffs chalet frm 4to 6~~~ ^w^
till then =)
-nazuki-

A smile A days doesnt burn a sorrow away

2009-04-02T09:48:00.000-07:00

Ppl use to say,
If u smile u will be happier.
But i dun feel it anymre. Cos when i smile
i force a thousand nerves to force that "pretty smile" u
see everyday.
I guess tt makes u happy right?

I smile mre tdy? probably some time back?
I shed less tears tt day, probably mre tdy.
Mayb someone was right abt nt living to ripe an old age.
wad's the big deal?

but im happi i have ppl true to me beside me,
sad to say i have some drilling me bit by bit.

If one day u will reach out to me, with a pure heart,
i will give u my hand and u shall nv let it go..
But "u" will nv appear cos, i haven learnt to trust "u".

-nazuki-

2009-03-31T11:34:00.000-07:00

I have been angry and sad @ times.
For wad had happened, for what is happening now.
Now and then wasnt very different.
TT makes me realise hw happier i was in life @ some points.
I treasure it then i treasure it nw.
Be it for love,
Be it for friendship,
Be it for wrk..
There are ups and downs.
Thou im at the lowest pt,
I wont let them bring me down.
4mths was the first time mayb this time will be longer.

Wad's so perfect abt urself?
Mayb it's time humans take a look in the mirror?
Question urself wad u did right and wrong?
If u dun even make a single mistake then take a step higher.

I am happy for wad i have,
for wad i achieve.
I fell and stand up again,
i make sure i will..

-nazuki-

2009-03-25T21:55:00.000-07:00

Another day of sorrow,
any day of my life flew past me.
Im gonna be 21 soon, and im still stuck...

Probably ending up here is bd,
but nt realli bd. ive learnt to get on my feets.
To be like one of them, proanaly one of us
would get oscar best leading female actor ^^

I guess it's like tt everywhere?
Or is it jux here.
i think i also damn suay, my GM call my shop
which he nv do...
and he did ytd.thought is another college playin a prank on me.
then gt him into trouble also...
*sigh x inifnity

Lady luck where are u?
Some1 even ask me to go pray...
hmmmm should i?
*sigh

have been so sad for like 3 wks...
I hope i will hapiier soon ^^

tdy meeting my loves <3 lol ^^
i guess happi day later?

Sick sicker~

2009-03-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

ytd had fever,
took medication recover a bit i guess.
but im still very dizzy, gt the yun yun feel.
Like im floating, so tired and tmr have stock take fcuk!!
damn i hate.
*cross fingers
I hope everything will be done smoothly.
It looks like everything is in a mess thou =(
*sigh
I still feel tt humans are very very scary...
scary then whateva thing living on earth~
I wish i wish there are nicer ppl ard me =(
*sigh

If im still gonna be sad for the nxt few mths,
u will probably see me fallin into depression...
*sigh
i sigh mre often nw thou...

anyway some outdated pics ^^

-nazuki-

2009-03-22T10:03:00.000-07:00

Have u ever realli look deep into a person's eye?
U will realise hw scary a person can be.
I seriously hate serious eye contacts(wif ppl im nt clse wif).

I fear to see wad is inside of u,
wad is deep within u.
The way i was questioned,
i felt like a prisoner held in jail.
The way u looked at me,
I felt my truth looking like lies.
I dunnoe hw to react to u anymre..
It seemed that im nt doing wad im suppose to do,
or are u making me lookin like tt,
u make me confused.
Or was it the other way round.
I see no pt tellin u anymre things, cos im jux gonna waste my time.
This emotion tt is getting into me,
I dont know hw long i can withstand..
But one thing im for sure, if i endure to the end i will be the winner.

Or is it a sign to shw it's time for me to fight back?
But will i be able to be the winner once again?
mayb jux a little longer...

-nazuki-

2009-03-20T06:19:00.000-07:00

Life is jux so full of surprises.
You will nv see ur future, until it comes.
I hadven been realli happi for some things,
for some things tt i dun see a pt in sayin out.
So wad if i say tt?
Will u listen? Will u share my load?
I doubt so...

Im happy abt my life, family & friends.
Thou finance was always a problem.
But im sad abt...
abt my job.
Abt what im doing each day.
To a point, i dun even noe why imliving on this earth.
To maintain my look, style, size.
To worry abt my pimples, my dark circle and the amt of fats im
gonna have eating each type of food @ times.
Humans live to suffer or live to smile.

I guess i have a choice.
The secrets says....

"If u think u are sad, then u will be sadder.."

^^

-nazuki-

Pampered

2009-03-18T20:52:00.000-07:00

*smiles
lalalalalal!!!
yay i bought myself a couple of stuffs...
And im happi XD
List of things i gt:
-my fav comic
-slimming cream(for my super duper big thighs): it's kinda gd i measure my leg abt some time back, i think my thighs become smaller by 1/2 inch!!! lol if i measured the right place.
-3x volume(SHILLS) : i dun realli recomend this cos it's nt any better than
hair spray, doesnt stay too long, cos scalp to be itchy due to dryness, drys hair.
-A fasio purple eye shadow, new series (needs to mix wif shinny eye shadow, otherwise the effect very matt)

Part II
this is realli hard work i swear!!
It took almost a mth to get all of these.
- acrylic roses frm the cathay and clarke quay!!
- swarsoki crystals frm arab street
And the worse thing, I realise i haven do anything to my HP OMG!

Part III
My nails 2 wks ago.. lol doesnt look like tt nw thou, except for my toe nails.
LMAO

Part IV
-THE MUST BUY COOLING TEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THUS THINGS to do in 4 weeks time.
- Get my hair trimmed & colour
- Decorate my hp!!
- Stock take (24th_ @ shop =(
- do my finger nails!!

~nazuki~

ME and MYSELF

2009-03-17T10:22:00.000-07:00

Have u wonder hw much u change as a person?
lolx..
i dont know abt u....
but for me i realise i change a lot.

Frm bad to better,
frm better fallin back to worst.
and back to better again..
My life and ppl ard me keep changing as life goes on.
I dun noe hw long i can laugh wif the ppl i trust nw,
but i will treasure.
Glad tt at least im nt alone.

For whatever that had happened to me will be left behind,
Behind of me and..
tt'll be it.
It will nv happen again, and i will be standin strong like nw.
Like who i am instead of wad some1 liked.
I would say i did regretted knowing him.

For now I have a wish...

And that is to be ME.

-nazuki-

If I were a boy..

2009-03-16T19:07:00.000-07:00

Which i think i will never be.
I dont think i would ever live up even criteria of being a guy.
The difference btn a guy and a girl.

GUYS(most nt all)
-Their brains function together wif their dick.
-Sex comes before love.
-Dont see a big deal in having many girls or rather having sex wif
diff girls in a week.
-Uses girl's weakness(love/affection): when girls fall in love(tt' it),
take her cash, have her body or even abuse her; make her a sex slave.
-Put themselves first.
-Treats a girl super nice before getting her.
-Earn cash to feed cars, electronic devices, or the lastest PC game.
-Thinks that all girls are troublesome, or attention seeker whores.
-As they grow older, perversions take over them, seek for chhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiii bitches,
use wateva cash they have to be sucked dry by them to have their dicks into the holes.
-usually slaps they own mouth, with their own words.

GIRLS(most nt all)
-See guys criteria as in cars, cash, salary, credit card.
-Wants to be pampered love and have the attention frm a guy.
-Sees sex as a key to hold down guy's love, or some even use cash.
-Earn to spend on cosmetic, slimming cream and "bao yang bing"
-Hates guys that doesnt have nice gesture.
-Sees beauty maintaining mre than saving money in the back.
-Many are bimbos, pretty on the outside stupid in the inside.
-Some are bitchy whores that lures man for ONSs.
-Thinks that the are the prettiest bitch on earth.
-Use sex as bait to earn luxury.

Guys are bastards, girl are bitches.
What have humans gt to say?
Mars vs Venus.
Mayb we hate & love each other for wad we are.

Sometimes i think SOME ppl made the society look bad,
turn ard and see hw many ppl are stabbing behind u?
U will be really shock to see wad's happening.
I quote this frm a drama,
"Humans betray to live to their dreams faithfully"
I saw it for myself..
Hw cruel humans can be.

anyway ppl,
pls help to click on the nuffnang ads at the top
of my blog pic ^^ thnx !!

-nazuki-

1st day @ wrk

2009-03-09T09:23:00.000-07:00

Actually sometimes,
the feeling of rushing for wrk can be very contending.
LOL especially when u reach wrk on time!! LMAO
I couldnt bother mre to do anything on train tdy,
I jux fell asleep after i gt a sit XD

On my way hm, met a really crappy aunty lah!!
I was waiting for the lrt, then suddenly felt someone pushing me, look
to the back alamak~~ a aunty push push. train haven even stop, rush to where !! -_-
then i jux said to my sis loudly : shui ah? zhuang wo? Then i stare at her at the corner of my eye. Cos im gonna alight on the first stop, before i made my way.
The same aunty again leh, this time "excuse me" people when the train haven open the door. After tt she combo again!!! 1,2,3 ppl go into the lift, I DUN GET IT leh seriously!! NO ONE NO ONE PRESSED THE LIFT la. Then again the damn aunty squeeze in front of me jux siam to the left hand side. I press the lift on the right, then i said loudly: Bu liao jie leh, mei zhi mei you ren an tian ti.
Seriously I DONT GET IT. Some aunty can be a "gold digger", pressing the lift button is defintely cleaning than wad they do lah!!
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!

-nazuki- ARGGHH

Back to wrk..

2009-03-08T10:50:00.001-07:00

Tmr will be my 1st day of wrk after 4 days of differebr kinda leaves..
1day of off day, 1 day of replacement off, 2 days of medicial leaves.
But dun envy me, cos i didnt have fun these few days.
I ate so much med tt sometimes the med jux filled my stomach =(

I completed watching a drama..
http://wiki.d-addicts.com/LIAR_GAME
finally after so much struggle.. lolx cos i have to wrk and didnt manage to have extra time
to watch.
The shw jux shws human nature. sad but true.

Gonna end here wif a pic of me XD

1st day of the yr~

2009-01-01T04:31:00.000-08:00

01 01 09
a new yr~
a new start~
say bye to 2008
welcome my new start~~
damn i have soooo little time to do sooo much things~~

on my pending list
1. restocks for my missha masks
2.new clothes & bags
3.new handphone
4.new type of facial foam(cos the one im using will no longer be producing anymre damn)
5.future plans~~ damn!! @@
6.some vivenne westwood stuffs~

-nazuki-